Thursday, August 30, 2012

Can i take a fricken shower?!

I mean really it feels like days(not really) I remember my last shower like it was this morning. Hot, steamy, soapy, refreshing 30 minute peaceful SHOWER! Ok, so that hasn't happened in 7 years!!  Now it's OMG the kids are asleep RUN to the shower, turn water on, get naked, put one foot in tub then bam MOMMMMMMMMYYYYY... really? F*%k. Can i take a fricken shower kids?? Listen i love you babies to the moon and my life would be NOTHING without you. But, Mommy needs to shower. Katie remember when you asked me what that smell was and it was so awful? Punkie baby, that was Mommy's sweat from cleaning, cooking, playing, working all for you... So please let me take a fricken SHOWER!!!

You don't even want me to get started on taking a poo-poo in the house!

Heres hoping the shampoo gets rinsed out of my hair before the bloody murder Mommy is doing something alone screams start!!!

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First Happy 5 months Gracie girl!! Mommy loves you to pieces!!! xoxoxoxox

So life has been pretty decent since i started taking my new medication. I mean i still have my down time. Like yesterday when i totally freaked out over NOTHING, TRASH really! I guess i just don't understand how someone could be that miserable with their life to be rude, hateful and just plain evil to someone who is finally getting it together and finding her happiness?!!! Today was the first day in a long time that i don't recall thinking at least once about take every single pill i have to sleep and never wake up, even with all the stress i still have(which is a TON) but hey the day isn't over yet, so well see!!!! The pain pills I'm on actually worked today, till now!! My hips and back are ass holes.....
Having bi-polar is something I've always had but just didn't know what to call it. For years the doctors have been throwing me on the newest depression medication just hoping it will work to shut me up. When my shrink lady told me i was bi-polar i was like, yeah OK whatever. I know bi-polar when i see it and I'm so not... She told me a little about it and gave me information and of course first thing i do when i get home is to  Google it!!!!! I was like wow it's totally not what i thought it was, I'm f*%king BI-POLAR!!!!!!
and even more proof is the medication designed for is starting to work... But, then again every time i start a new med it would work in the beginning but soon stop. So heres to hoping this shit works!!!!!

This rain has been pissing me off lately, I have some reviews the i want to get done but  they involve beach sand...
I need to check t he weather for Saturday. I'm really excited about a few of my up coming reviews!! I'm trying not to be to excited and be posting all over Facebook about them, which people tend to take it as I'm bragging and get all ass hurt. It's totally not that I'm bragging, it's just that I'm super excited and proud of myself for something i love to actually be working out! Although I've had this blog for a few months and done nothing with it until 2 months ago and in 2 months I've accomplished more then some people have in a year. That must mean something, right?!!! But... Oh, well haters gonna hate... Like Kat Williams says "Haters make us, If you only have 10 haters, you need to be having 20 more by the end of summer" Love that funny short fuck!!

It's bed time for the punks!

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Footminders® Orthotic Insole Review

The great people over at Footminders® sent me a pair of really nice orthotic insole.

I chose the Footminders®   Comfort features Dual Layer Orthotic Technology, a supportive medium-density EVA,combined with a soft 2mm Durapontex layer that makes this a very comfortable orthotic insole, providing support AND cushioning.

Footminders®  Comfort Features :

Footminders Comfort is a biomechanical sports orthotic insole engineered to perfection for ultimate walking comfort.

* Suitable for work boots, wide-fitting lace-up shoes, runners, sports, tennis and golf shoes
*Dual Layer footbed technology: firm EVA + 2mm of soft, cushioning Durapontex
*Large shock-absorbing Heel Pad
*Extra-deep heel cup for superior ankle stability
* High biomechanically-shaped arch support to control over-pronation
*Metatarsal support to help relieve and prevent Ball of Foot pain
*Soft, velour-like anti-bacterial top fabric to keep feet dry and cool

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My thoughts-  I really like mine, at first though it felt a bit strange, but no worse then buying a new pair of shoes,to break in! I have been wearing mine for 2 days, i noticed while out shopping(doing lots of walking) that my ankles did not hurt as much as normal and i had great support! I'm happy to say i will be keeping these insoles in my shoes until its time for a new pair!!!

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Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Gracie Update

Gracie's heart is perfectly healthy!!!!!!!!!!!
All the heart tests came back perfect and you can imagine the feeling this Mommy is feeling!!!
I think i thanked the doctor about a freaktillion times, also thanked the medical students just watching LOL
My heart was singing sweet praise!!

My sweet sweet "Rainbow" baby's heart is perfect.

I want to thank everyone that prayed, wished and sent good vibes to my Graice girl!!


Katie & Gracie
 Real love right here!

After we left the hospital, my sister Stephanie and I went and did a little retail therapy, had some lunch and talked and talked and talked, lots of laughs and just PEACE!!
Finished up some school shopping and got some more craft supplies, the Punk Katie has been
asking and asking for more, so we are working on some new crafts
here is a little sneak peek of what we got going on!!
They are coming along nicely!

Today Gracie started rolling over like an alligator death roll LOL
She has rolled over a few times before but it wasnt on purpose.
My baby is growing to fast!!

So SO proud of my baby girl!!!!!

Things are starting to look up for this little family and i pray we stay on this path!
Yesterday & today has been the first time in so long that i really loved being alive, So much good news! 

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Tuesday, August 28, 2012

My Rainbow prayers......

I try to go to bed around 8pm and don't fall asleep till 12am, I don't want to wake up till 6am but awake at 4am.... I'm surprised i got any sleep at all.... Cardiologist for Gracie girl this morning ... I feel sick, trying to stay positive and i know my baby girl is strong and she loves her life!!
 I'm so thankful for the ones who care about our little girl and I want to say THANK YOU to Trent for helping me learn how to talk to God, even if i have doubts about God being real, deep inside i know he is real. After losing my only son i went through a lot of religious battles. 
What kind of a God would give me a perfectly healthy stillborn son?? Why would he allow this beautiful baby to grow inside of me until 4 days before his scheduled birthday? Why would he allow my son to die inside of me?? No joking here, i was dead inside, my heart was broke beyond repair, my soul was crushed... September 2010 The storm of my life...

Then March 2012 the storm clouds eased, the lightening subsided and the down pour became a sprinkle. My new baby girl was born.. My rainbow shined through!!!! 

My sunshine finally has a rainbow!! Katie being my Sunshine, Gracie my Rainbow! 

 I need anyone and everyone who reads this to PLEASE pray, wish, send good vibes, ect whatever will work for my Gracie girl to be OK!!!!!  I will update everyone as i know whats going on!!
Mommy and Daddy love you to the moon and back beautiful Punk'n!!!!

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Monday, August 27, 2012


I know i have said it a freaktillion times and guess what?!
I'll say it a f*%ktillion times more!!!
I LOVE my girls so damn much!!
Life would be ubber doober dooingly boreing without my Punk's!!

So, I'm cooking dinner and i hear Katie telling Gracie all about how she was made and how she
she is growing so fast.

Katie's version of how she & Gracie where made....

Katie: Gracie when Mommy & Daddy made you, Daddy put a Punkin seed in Mommy's belly button and you grew and grew and grew and then, the doctor cut your vine, so now your going to grow a lot and be just like me.

Gracie: Hey!!!

Katie: Gracie you are such a cutie little baby!!

Gracie: Hey!!

 Katie: I love you Gracie Girl!!

Gracie: Hey!!

Katie: Gracie are you listening to me?

Gracie: Hey!!

 Katie: Ugh(Shaking her head) Mom, is that all she can say?!?!!!

There is nowhere i would rather be then here, struggles and all just to be with my girls!!!
Love their freakin adorable faces more then life!!

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I Got This, Got It?!!!!

Sleep. What is sleep? when your child's doctor tells you that your 4 month old "Rainbow" baby MUST go to a cardiologist because she needs her little heart checked. Yeah, so not much sleep has be had around our house since. I think the receptionist thought i was crazy, when she called... When the phone rang and i seen that it was "Shands" I lost it, with a sobbing "Hello" I answered the phone, She asked for the parents of Gracie and of course I said "Umm, you are not supposed to be calling me, Gracie's doctor was supposed to call me to say she is OK". The poor lady was beside herself trying to calm me. So, here we have been waiting for Tuesday. The first day i couldn't stop crying, I was in full blow panic attacks and the thoughts that where in my head where just crazy to say the least. I call my therapist but she is on mutha freaking vacation for TWO weeks. I lost her personal cell number and tried to get it from her office, but like the little beotches they are refuse to give it to me.. So i called my Momma!!!!!!! My first instinct is to call her anyways(but been trying to be not so dependent on her) I swear if it  wasn't for her i would be in a crazy house right now(Thank you, Momma) and My mother in-law woke up at 2am thinking of things i could do to help the doctor understand what has been going on with Gracie(Thank you, Tammy for the advice!) Besides a handful of friends and family, a majority of family members has yet to even acknowledge the fact my daughter is sick. It's pretty sad when a stranger on the phone has said more to me about praying and caring about Gracie then they have!!! Don't worry your little fucking heads off though cause this Momma has got this shit!! Got it???? Yeah..... You know who you are and if your offended by what i just said obviously it pertains to you!!!!!

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I better go for now, got shat to do!!

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Sunday, August 26, 2012

Roots Only Applicator tool Review/Giveaway!!

The lovely people over at Roots Only sent me their Roots Only Applicator tool!!
Myself and sister recently had a conversation about how we are drying out our hair with dying all of the hair over and over, so when i received this wonderful applicator tool we we're excited, We loved the color and style of the bottle and the fact it's reusable! Penny pinching is a must in these times! For root touch ups, go to your local beauty salon to purchase a bottle of your favorite color dye and a bottle of developer... Cheaper then buying complete box kits!

Some ways to use the Roots Only Applicator Tool-
Roots Only  applicator tool is not just for touching up your roots with hair color anymore!! With the newly designed, durable applicator comb, which is 100% guaranteed not to leak you can now use the Applicator Tool for medicated shampoos, conditioning growth oils, hair conditioners, hair color, anti-itch scalp solutions, lice medication and any other hair treatment solution required to get down to the scalp and roots.

What we used Roots Only for-
My daughter has been complaining of dry scalp so i made my recipe mix(it's a secret)mixed it up so easily in the Roots Only applicator bottle and got started! This Roots Only applicator tool is so easy to use my 7 year old took over and did an amazing job.. Here are some photos!!

We really like this product! Pretty look and awesome design, so easy to use a 7 year old can do it!!!

1. Add desired amount of solution to the Roots Only squeezable bottle.
2. Attach delivery applicator tool to bottle.
3. Although “Roots Only” is virtually mess free, it’s a good idea to place a towel over your shoulders.
4. Run a comb through your hair to remove any tangles.
5. Using “Roots Only” as you would a comb, comb through your hair while squeezing the bottle. Be sure to keep the teeth of the comb in contact with your scalp.
6. If you hit a tangle, simply stop squeezing the bottle and use the applicator head as a comb to remove the tangle.
7. The solution stops flowing when you stop squeezing. Once the tangle is gone, reposition the “Roots Only” hair applicator tool and resume.
8. Follow manufacturer’s instructions for processing time.

Cleaning Instructions-
Fill “Roots Only” bottle with warm water. Shake and squeeze water through applicator tool until all traces of solution are removed.
CLEAN – Fill the “Roots Only” bottle with HOT soapy water, and screw on the applicator tool & squeeze water through teeth until water runs clear.
SOAK – Soak in very hot water (boiling) 2 to 3 minuter; Air dry.

                                  Easy Peeze Pie!!

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EcoSmart® Organic Insecticide Review/Giveaway!!

Recently we had a marching parade of ants in our kitchen, when i seen them marching in a perfect line, the song from Dumbo started playing in my head "The ants go marching one by one, hurrah, hurrah. The ants go marching one by one, hurrah, hurrah". LOL
Yes, little bugs I know my cooking is pretty awesome. but, you little guys are NOT invited to dinner!! So when the EcoSmart® company sent me a package of EcoSmart® Organic Ant & Roach killer, Home Pest Control and Insect Repellent Lotion I was ubber dobber dooo excited to try these product out!!

*EcoSmart® products i tested*

EcoSmart® Organic Ant & Roach killer-
Kills ants, carpenter ants, cockroaches, crickets, pill bugs, silverfish, spiders and other crawling insects on contact.

EcoSmart® Organic Home Pest Control-
Kills and repels over 100 home invading pests: Ants (including Carpenter, Red Harvester, Pavement and Argentine), Beetles, Centipedes, Cockroaches, Crickets, Earwigs, Fleas, Millipedes, Pantry Pests, Pillbugs, Silverfish, Spiders, Sowbugs, Ticks and other crawling insect pests.

EcoSmart® Organic Insect Repellent Lotion-

EcoSMART® keeps bugs away for hours and is safe for the entire family. We don’t use DEET or other synthetic toxins–our powerful, all-natural formula is made from organic plant oils, and repels mosquitoes, ticks, gnats and other annoying pests for hours!

Unlike other insecticides, it is made from organic plant oils and kills bugs naturally to better protect your family. Plus, there’s no pesticide residue.

It’s safe. It’s effective. It’s smart. Naturally.

All other product can be found at the EcoSmart® website!

A little Company 411-
Founder, Steve Bessette of EcoSmart®
Bessette believes that EcoSMART® technologies is helping the parents of communities in the U.S. feel good about the foods they eat, the safety of their children and pets, and the health and well-being of their living environment and water supply.

It’s like an insurance policy for your family,” says Bessette. “When it comes to your family, why take a chance?”

My thoughts-
I used the Ant & Roach killer in the kitchen and other spots in the home that i was worried the ants may come to, I used the Home Pest Control around the door ways and outside around the house, while i was spraying outside i use the Insect Repellent Lotion and not one mosquito touched my skin!!! I honestly love these products and what makes it all worth it, they are NON-TOXIC, SAFE around Children & Pets!!! Which is so VERY important as i have 2 daughters ages 7 years and 4 months. EcoSmart® Organic Insecticides are not made with harmful chemicals, they are all natural and environmentally safe!!!! The EcoSmart® products smell like peppermint, I can still smell hints of peppermint after my spraying on 8-23-12. and YES the ants we're demised instantly!!!! EcoSmart® products are Mommy APPROVED by this over protective Momma!!!

I handed out sample packs to a few friends, This what they had to say-

Dave.R- My wife and I have 3 active boys, who are always outside playing sports. When the boys come in they usually have a bite or two. We used the lotion on them and not one bite was to be seen! Great Product!

Shelbi.S- Me and my kids go to the beach swimming and fishing a lot. We used the repellent and LOVE IT!!

Charlie.C- I like it. Keeps the bugs at bay!

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Saturday, August 25, 2012

Rumor Weeds.....

I really pray that my readers love my blogging, i try to hold nothing back. What's the point in holding back when you live in a small town like i do?? Everyone seems to think they know everything about everyone here, they actually should rename this place to Rumorville!!! and that's why i don't hold much back, if you want to know the truth I'm more then willing to tell you, so that you get the actually facts!!! In our family we have always said, " You can fart checking your mail and by the time it reaches the other side of town, you done shit your self with a nice runny consistency". Yeah, it's pretty much 100% true because Billy Bob done said so!!! LOL. Don't get me wrong there are a lot of good people from here. but, good or bad people tend to get bored...  I shared my fair share of gossip not knowing if it was 100% truth. But, i never make shit up. That don't make it any better, but i thought i would throw it out there LOL

The absolute worse rumor ever started about my family was at my Son's funeral, someone driving past the funeral home said they seen my husband making out and being sexually with a friend who came to be there for us. What they really seen was this lady giving Trent (a sympathy hug). I got home that night and my messages where blew up with people who just had to tell me what someone said they seen.....
I just couldn't believe how heartless this person was to be so hateful to start a rumor of this extent.

Rumor weeds...NOT in my garden...aint got time for it!!! Honesty is the best policy!! You don't have to put things out there that you don't want people to know, But if you do at least make sure it's 100% the truth!!

While waiting for Tuesday to get here blogging is keeping me busy and from losing my mind!!!!

And now I'm running on with babble because i woke up a 1:30 and couldn't go back to sleep...
Time to get the Hubber-Lover up and at um for work!!

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Thursday, August 23, 2012

Noxicare™ Natural Pain Relief

The wonderful people over at Noxicare™ Natural Pain Relief sent me a tube of their Natural Pain Relief cream. I received it in the mail yesterday, shipping was very fast!! I appreciate a good company with timely shipping & great products!

What is Noxicare and what does it do?

Noxicare is a breakthrough natural, patent-pending pain relief formula that is a proprietary combination of 7 of the world’s most potent natural pain relievers that quickly and effectively alleviate inflammation, muscle aches and nerve pain with NO known side effects, without a prescription and safely to use every day!

1. Acute and chronic inflammation- your body’s immune response to irritation or other injuries with features like redness, swelling, warmth and pain.

2. Muscle aches-  Muscle aches can be acute (as a result of athletic injury) or chronic (experienced by fibromyalgia or cancer sufferers) and involve ligaments, tendons, bones and organs.

3. Nerve pain- Painful nerve endings in the layers of your skin can cause burning, throbbing and stinging.

Noxicare has been especially helpful for relieving pain of those suffering from arthritis, athletic injuries, carpal tunnel syndrome, neuropathy pain associated with diabetes, side effects of chemotherapy, musculoskeletal disorders, fibromyalgia, tension headaches.

What's in Noxicare?

Noxicare is the first product to combine 7 of the world’s most potent natural pain relievers to effectively alleviate inflammation, muscle aches and nerve pain.

1. Turmeric- one of the powerful healers found in nature, recognized for its anti-inflammatory properties.
2. Willow Bark- has been used to treat pain and inflammation since the time of Ancient Egypt and Greece.

3.Ginger- helps alleviate muscle strains, arthritis and rheumatism, and is a catalyst for improving the effectiveness of other herbs.

4. Holy Basil- properties include anti-inflammatory, antioxidant, antibacterial and antiviral.
5. Rosemary Extract- has served a variety of purposes including topical use for joint or musculoskeletal pain.
6. Alpha Lipoic Acids- antioxidants used to treating diabetic neuropathy and increasing blood flow to the nerves.
7. Boswellia Extract- an anti-inflammatory used to treat arthritis and joint pain.

Did Noxicare work for me?

I can safely say, Yes! I suffer from chronic pain in quite a few different areas. When i was a teen i ended up wrecking a dirt bike, messed my right hand up pretty bad. I have had severe pain for years(which tends to make blogging a bit interested to say the least) After i received my Noxicare™ Natural Pain Relief yesterday evening, i wanted to try it out ASAP! I ripped the package open, read the directions(which are simple enough) and then applied to my right hand. It was almost instant relief and last through the night!!!! I applied another coat this morning and so far so GOOD!! Also, the cream is odorless and there is no yuck-o greasiness or tacky film left behind, actually my hands felt silky and smooth!!
Now with that being said, however i would not recommend this to anyone with severe pain as a lone method of pain control. While the Noxicare™ Natural Pain Relief is strong enough to provide some relief, it doesn’t take severe pain completely away. I do recommend Noxicare™ Natural Pain Relief   for muscle pain, mild nerve pain and inflammation!!!

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Awake again.....

I got about 3 hours of sleep Tuesday evening, didn't get any sleep last night at all. After Gracie's appointment yesterday morning i was beyond drained, we were there for 3 hours running tests, we came home and I cooked dinner, spent time with my girls watching cartoons and then we got a sample of how it would be if our Son was here. We watched our friends 2 year old little boy, I won't lie, I didn't do the watching. Trent took care of him. It was to much for me emotional and physically after the day we had, lack of sleep, horrific news we we're just given that something may be wrong with our "Rainbow" babies heart. I was to point of dropping! After dinner Trent made me go lay down and get some sleep while he watched the little boy and took care of Katie..bathes and all!!! (Thank you!!) I just pray the doctors will call me tomorrow to say NOTHING is wrong with Gracie, that she is perfectly HEALTHY.... Doc talked of Bells Palsy or a heart valve issue. He had her chest X-rayed to check her lungs for any reasons she could be losing oxygen which could be causing the "blue" face. He said her lungs looks fine. So, he ordered a EKG and now we wait to hear from the cardiologist. I think i may lose whats left of my mind waiting.... I just NEED her to be OK. I can't parent from afar to another child... I need these girls, BOTH of my girls...

* Update 8-24-12 Cardiologist office called...Tuesday we take her to be seen at Shands Gainesville.

If you're reading this i ask from the bottom of my heart to PLEASE PRAY for Gracie, even if you do not believe in God i asked that you pray to your God, i ask that you pray to my God to be forgiving to my family.

I just need her to be OK....

Wednesday, August 22, 2012

Storm Walker....

Sorry y'all i know i haven't posted since the 16th.. I have so much going on that my brain has been a spindle wheel of hell!!! Katie decided to slam her poor tiny middle finger in the car door as she was getting out of the car for her first day of second grade, it ripped the nail a little and automatically turned black and blue. The school nurses put a band-aid on it and sent her on her way, it didn't look to bad. When she got home and i seen it i wanted to barf ,it swelled up pretty good and the whole finger turned  purplish, I called the doctors and made an appointment for the both of us since i would be taking her in anyway might as well get my bi-polar, poor health issued self back to the doctor too. They did an X-ray of her hand, nothing was broken. But, Doc thinks she tore a ligament or something. So now she is in a finger splint that has her shooting a permanent "bird" for the next few weeks LOL  I need to get me one of those!!! As for me, Doc reevaluated all my medications and added more and plans to add more in the next few weeks..AWESOME!! ::Rolling Eyes:: Well, at least we think my stomach ulcers are under control..Maybe! Thank the Lord i have some kind of insurance because just one of my mood stabilizers for a one month supply cost more then my monthly mandatory bills... Craziness!!

It was a shock when i walked in to talk to the Doc...

People I'm here to talk about the loss of my only Son, my stillborn Son. So, Tell me why in the hell would you send me to talk to a big fat belly pregnant women???? Really? I mean not only is that an issue for me. but, i would think that would be a major issue for this poor pregnant lady having to hear my heartbroken cries over losing my baby......
I'm pretty sure i scared the living hell out of her. Sorry Doc! I don't plan on keeping her as my main shrink though, I love my regular one Shin Le'..She is an awesome little Asian lady who actually listens(or at least i think she does, which is ummmm IMPORTANT!!) The faces she makes as i bring up new hellish topics to talk about, LOL helps ease the moments of pure pain and the "oh" "wow" and "oh my's" of the blissfully unaware are somehow comforting... is that demented of me??
I've been through a lot in my 31 one years... I have a lot to get out. She honestly hasn't even heard a quarter of the hell I've been through. I haven't even got to my Daddy's suicide with her.
The Doc asked me to start keeping a journal to which i replied, What year would you like to read first???
 Due to my short term memory loss issues, I've always been a writer I mean i have them, it might take me a month or two to find them in my hoarded hell of a storage, Page 1 and 3 might be in this box and page 2 and 4 might be in that box..but they are there!!
All i can say to her is hang on lady you got a hell of a ride being my shrink!!!! 

It's getting closer to my Son's 2nd Angelversary, emotions are sky high...

I've been taking on so much here lately to try and keep busy. Fundraising, Blogging, Reviewing Products and my daughters little glow company. Plus all the normal daily Mommy & Wife tasks. 



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Thursday, August 16, 2012

Fit for a Princess!

The wonderful people over at Buy Provence sent my Princesses a package of products to try out, and I have to say my girls absolutely LOVE them! Katie received the ALPHANOVA® Princesse Body Wash & the ALPHANOVA® Princesse Bio Hydrantant Moisturiser. Gracie received the ALPHANOVA® bébé  Dermo-Cleansing Hair & Body Wash and the ALPHANOVA® bébé Moisturizing Cream.

 The Girls love the way the bottles look and the way the products smell, the ALPHANOVA® Princesse products smell like yummy strawberries which happens to be Katie's favorite!! Katie had no reservations about diving in to slathering up!
 At first i was a bit worried because i do not take using just "anything" on my 4 month old lightly as she was preemie at birth, I have stuck with the same bath & body products since she was born, so to ease a over protective mothers mind i used a small amount on one foot, waited an hour to make sure no allergic reaction occurred. After an hour all was well and i slathered her up!! I love the way it suds up and does not leave a yucky after film, Gracie was soft as.... well, a babies bottom LOL
My girls smelled so good i couldn't stop snuggling on them!!  I'm a very satisfied Mommy with these products and I plan to continuing using them on my girls!
                                             Princess Katie using

 ALPHANOVA® Princesse

Princess Gracie using

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Wednesday, August 15, 2012

We hate spiders!!

So, my pretty little Punkie wants to be a YouTube Star!!
We created her an account, you can find it here

We made a test video & put a funny video of Uncle Scotty on there LOL
It's toooo funny! 
Not sure who's going to be madder him or Auntie Stacey for her "nerdy" laugh!!

Earlier tonight as i was laying in bed with the girls editing videos, i felt something crawling on my
shoulder so i go to look and it's a freaking huge SPIDER!! Needless to say
I started screaming and flipping out!!!
I jumped up screaming and smacking myself like a mad women,
Katie started flipping outscreaming, crying with me and then Gracie started screaming crying. My poor poor girls we're screaming, crying without a clue of what the hell was going on, then when Katie finally seen what
 i was flipping out about(it was crawling up my leg after i done flung it across the room) she started panicking, jumping, crying, screaming for DADDYYYYY. so that made Gracie even worse. So my hubby comes running in the room like a murder had taken place(at this point i feel safe cause he's the spider smoocher) I look at my girls with terrified wide mouth screams and real tears pouring down their faces, I could not help but to BURST out laughing.
It took me well over 30 mins to calm them & Daddy had to show them the damn thing was dead!!

It's very much safe to say, Me & my girls are deathly afraid of spiders LOL
To bad i didn't have the video camera out!!!

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Monday, August 13, 2012

Its a new world, People!!

Had a wonderful visit with my Momma & seester Stacey.
I miss them already, it feels like they we're only here for a few hours instead of 2 days.
I'm ubber excited to have my Punkie back home!!
We only have a week before school starts again, and i feel sick!!
Time to take advantage of school tax breaks and load up on clothes and school supplies!!
Hmmm.. Wonder if there is a tax break on diapers? wouldn't that be nice!?!

I just can't beilve my little girl is SEVEN years old and in Second grade already!
She is so smart is blows my mind!! 
This child of mine only made 3 B's the entire year, her last two report card's we're AB honor roll, she was so upset about it, I guess it lit a fire in her tummy because her very last report card was back being all A's!!! Very very very proud of her, 
although I'm proud of everything she does and the person she is! She got a PC Tablet for her birthday, My husband & I had a long conversation before we made the decision it was OK to have. I had no doubt's at all she should have one(cause i get my laptop back lol) Some people think that a SIX or SEVEN year olds are too young to be owning their own IPad or Cell phone. 
I do not. This is a new world, a world of technology. 
If i could afford the extra money monthly to give Katie a cell phone she would have one too. But, right now she hasn't even asked for one yet. It all comes down to responsibilities of parents, I do not allow her to just sit on the computer, tablet, phone, ect all damn day getting fat and killing brain cells.
 My kids LOVE to go outside and play just like i did as a child. 
Katie loves making mud pies, climbing trees and beating the neighbor hood boys in foot races!!
We read REAL books!!
You know the paper kind that you have to turn the pages!?
We love to read to each other and every week Katie check's out a new book from the library,
I believe that checking out books from the library teaches your children responsibility!
It is not yours so you must take care of it & return it when your supposed to.
Doing what you said your going to do & Doing it when you said you would,
Are must have skills in life!!
My children are far from being materially spoiled.
I will admit they are spoiled with LOVE!!
As every child should be.....

If i could give the world to them, they would so own it.
A real parent totally understands that statement!!!

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Sunday, August 12, 2012

Birthday Party

My Punkie's party went beautifully! 
I was a bit frustrated at first, i just new the day was going to be ruined and i was totally stressing out. 
Nothing and i mean NOTHING was going right that morning....
First- All the colors that i had picked out while window shopping we're out of stock only day's later
for the streamers, napkins, plates, ect. This is why you do NOT wait last minute
to purchase these items.... But, financial situation caused that so it couldn't be helped.
Second- The cake i ordered was WRONG.. This really pissed me off.
Normally i would have threw the worlds largest fit and demanded they fix it or eat it after they wore it.
But, i said whatever just give it to me, i was in a time crunch and way over paid for it.
This is why i normally make baked goods important like this myself!!
Thrid- It was 100 degrees outside and we had the party at the park....
The cake was melting, the 50lbs of ice melted faster then we could get it in the cooler.
I was a sweaty hot mess, looking like a big fat grease ball.
 the most important thing of all Katie and her friends had a blast!!!
Thanks to my family & friends her day was made so special!!!
The kids got hopped up on sugar and played their hearts out.
We had a slip n slide
Crazy legs water sprinkler
Football games
Karaoke singing
The whole play ground and large pavilion for the kids to do as they please without worry of other people taking over!

It was a AWESOME day!
LOVE my girls to pieces!!
Can't believe my Princess is SEVEN!

BTW, after seeing these photos of my huge self, I'm utterly disgusted.
Major diet time!!

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